Heavier

The bleeding is heavier today. 

Everyone around me IRL was sure that because I had two live births under my belt, that my losses were over.  I was never sure of that.  This is why.  I have always been afraid that the losses would happen again.  While I can't wait until Monday to see if the baby is alive, at the same time, I want to rewind time to Tuesday morning, when I wasn't bleeding, where I could pretend that everything was ok.