The bleeding is heavier today.
Everyone around me IRL was sure that because I had two live births under my belt, that my losses were over. I was never sure of that. This is why. I have always been afraid that the losses would happen again. While I can't wait until Monday to see if the baby is alive, at the same time, I want to rewind time to Tuesday morning, when I wasn't bleeding, where I could pretend that everything was ok.