Saturday, July 09, 2011


My son is 6 now.  My daughter will be 3 at the end of August.  My son is all boy.  He loves to fight and play rough and wants to do karate.  My daughter is all girl.  Her favorite color is pink, she loves dresses and tutus and she takes care of her baby all the time.

Why do I want one more?  I've always wanted three.  Before I found out that having children wasn't going to be as easy as I expected, I wanted as many as I could have and afford.  Then, as the years went by, and the miscarriages kept happening, I realized that that was not going to happen.  When I had my son, I was not in a good place financially.  When I had my daughter, it was worse.  Now, I am in school, their dad is in school, and while life isn't easy, and we are stressed about money on occasion, it is better than it was, and we will be done with school after next year.  I would rather go through a pregnancy while I am still in school than risk getting a job and losing it.  I went to work while I was pregnant with my daughter, and I ended up on bedrest, partially due to the job.  I don't want to put that stress on another pregnancy.  So, this is the best time for me.  Also, there is no guarantee that I can even get and stay pregnant.

I want one more. 

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