Monday, June 11, 2012



on June 12, 2012 Unsure of what to do…
blaming myself thou i know i shouldn’t.
trying to keep myself together
to stay strong for those around me.
knowing the truth of how i feel
scared that his feeling may be temporarily there
will he soon change his mind?
Or can we make this work?
What can I say to make him happy?
How can I make things right?
where do i stand?
I feel like I’m on the edge of a cliff
one step can throw me over
or his words can save me
but i should be saving him
i cant make this decision alone
but scare to say the words
to tell him what i need
feeling this way makes me guilty
just want to concentrate on him
to help him mend
no decision to be made
i cant mess this up

Seriously??  Cousin, you are 18 years old…  you have been staying at my house…  under my roof, eating my food.  And…  you write this about him??  And I know it is about him, because I have been watching you watch him, follow him, cuddle with him, rub against him.  Little did the two of you know that the neighbors around here like me, and would tell me that he has been feeling you up.  Little did you know that I am not the stupid person you thought I was that I would not know.  And then you post that on FB.  The day after I tell him its over.  WTF???
You weren’t the sole reason I left, but the many like you, that pass through his life like water…
I deserve happiness.  I will have it.


Anonymous said...

Still here. Still reading. I have no idea what to say but I'm out here thinking about you and sending you my best thoughts.

VHMPrincess said...

Still here too, good for you for leaving.

Cinderella said...

Glad that you cherished your self-esteem enough and left!

Lala said...

they never change, do they? I feel sick for you....